tonight..

Bismillahirahmanirrahim

Hubby is out for usrah tonight and will only reach home at 12 .He did sms me once earlier asking sakit dok lagi? And the answer is segor megor.

Tomorrow is going to be my EDD but in my mind and heart I still choose 10 th january as the due date because..simply because it is based on my LMP..I didnt simply guess the date, I catit my LMP dalam handphone and very sure of it.

I went to KKIA today at 11 am for my weekly check up and only got back home at 4 pm.yes, 4 pm!I went there alone as hubby has to be with muadz at home, kak mala pengasuh muadz was off - duty again today...hmmm..we have no relatives in here so terpaksalah...

While I was waiting, I pondered so many things and my mind kept on raising  "kalaulah aku kaya...kalaulah aku kaya x payah susah tunggu giliran dekat spital kerajaan ni.."

heheheh...kata kata itu seperti menghasut fikiranku..xtau kenapa..menunggu tadi sangatlah melelahkan..nak buat appointment sugar test pun 45 minit..bukan pergi appointment,book the date je pun!aduhai..

tapi fikiranku kembali waras..astaghfirullah...the are so many things that Allah has showered upon me in this life ..yet I keep on whining on the small things..

for those who are asking ( is there any?hehe), I am going to deliver at hospital umum sarawak..which is not my first choice but its ok, after considering many things especially financial- wise, I agreed with HUS and hubby is very relieved with this..yeah..if we go to private, paling koman 3k..seriously, mungkin banyaj lagi keperluan lain yg perlu didahulukan..huhu..walaupun menangis gak dulu sbb ingat second time nk deliver dkt private..huhu...

for me, kisah delivery ni tarbiyah dari Allah untuk setiap isteri..perjalanan dan pengalaman yg tak sama..tak semestinya ketidakselesaan di hospital kerajaan menyebabkan kita tidak selesa..dan kemudahan di hospital swasta memudahkan kita..apa2pun, i pray for female doctor and labor room..kwn saya pernah tahan meneran atas kerusi kes labor room dah full!

ok, aboh muadz dah balik..just my rambling..