wonders

(I really want to write a post in english but I dont have enough time for proof reading etc etc ..you cannot write broken english, can you?and who cares the tatabahasa if it is in bahasa?he he)

Here I am, writing at home..wow ada masa?masa selalu ada, it just that petang ni hubby is out for his futsal.

Muadz is sleeping..dalam buai di mana saya selalu kena gerakkan buai itu..He is growing well,2 days ago dia demam but its okay, his body was building antibodies.Muadz jarang demam, even lepas vaccination pun tak demam tapi cough dah 2 kali..Anyway, he likes to cry!ha ha..suara serak2 dah.

Tak sabar nak pindah rumah..our own house..we bought it few months ago, in front of UITM samarahan, just 5 minutes drive to my office. I need more space, Muadz needs more space, we need more space.Rumah setingkat setengah, not too big not too small.Muadz dah terhantuk sana sini, tempat lepak kami di rumah sewa sekarang adalah di ruang tamu, with TV in front..ohh I dont like this..tak sabar nak ada ruang yang besar..

Kami berdua setuju untuk taknak bagi Muadz tengok TV(tengok tatabahasa BMku ini)..akhirnya, hubby made his decision (ceh) today..I have been convincing him these few weeks that TV is not good for baby..anyway, Muadz sangatlah good mood bila tengok TV,boleh buat macam2 kerja bila buka TV..but its not good for him..so,sekarang kena kreatif main macam2 dengan dia sebab dia cepat bosan dan mula nak menangis nak perhatian.

Lately fikir banyak sangat, so many ideas, masalah kehidupan, masalah perasaan..funny dah nak masuk 25 tahun tapi rasa sama je like 18?he he..masalah pendapat, masalah manusia manusia, masalah hati..iya, itulah masalahnya.

Yusuf Estes kata hati kita yang punya, takde orang yang tahu apa dalamnya,orang boleh penjarakan badan kita, letak kita bawah tanah, letak dalam kotak but no one, no one can penjarakan hati kita.Its all in you.Hati tak sakit, semua sihat.Kalau luaran sihat, hati sakit , kita sakit sebenarnya.

I am trying to find a peace of mind and heart.To find peace regardless what is happening in this life.Good or bad.Happy or sad.Ying or Yang.The inner peace.You know like homeostasis in biology..it is like a reflect mechanism to bring our bodies back to original condition whenever the system is disturbed.

Muadz nangis.till then.dan pinggan tak basuh lagi!

tak masak malam ni, hubby baru call tanya nak order apa!he he..bliss :D